Author Archives: Elana Lyn Gross

This is a post by one of my best friends, Carrie Winans. I am so proud of her and am so lucky to be able to call her one of my closest friends! She contacted me about sharing her story and I immediately said yes because I think it’s such an important story to share.

Disclaimer: Winans is not a mental health professional and has no training in mental health. The following article only serves as an example of an experience. You should always seek out a proper diagnosis from a licensed professional if you are experiencing any dark feelings. If you or someone you know is thinking about ending their own life, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1 (800)-273-8255 and 9-1-1.

My entire life has been one of ease and pleasantries. I have never wanted for anything nor suffered at the hand of another. A bubbly blonde attached to glitter nail polish and singing while walking places, I never imagined I would find myself in the chair of a therapist’s office.

She handed me a card for a psychiatrist, “Carrie, you’re in shock.”

Shock, or acute stress reaction, is a psychological condition that arises in response to emotional, physical, or mental trauma. Symptoms typically last for a minimum of 2 days and a maximum of 4 weeks.

Everything about my life felt wrong. I had trouble describing who I was or what I liked to do. My dad talked about getting a dog for our family and I didn’t care. My mom offered to cook my favorite dish and I didn’t want it. Remembering to eat, shower, and respond to questions took a great amount of effort. I picked all my nail polish off my nails while staring out the window. The glitter had lost its shine.

Recognizing the Need for Help

I had never been to see a therapist before. Deciding that I needed additional help was not easy. I’m very used to working through my own problems and coming out on the other side. A few things helped me determine that I would not make it alone this time:

• Complete lack of appetite. Nothing could make me eat. If someone didn’t

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